A few minutes later, the jamming effect disappeared. I think to myself, “If only I’d been a little quicker…” but it’s nothing but an escape from reality.
We put Count Ptep away and we went to Nina’s house. And now we’re sitting at the living room table.
Nina, who was sitting opposite me, was staring at me intently. I was wondering what to say to her, so there was a heavy silence in the room.
By the way, I’ve notified my men of the situation. We’ve captured the Count’s men and dispatched a search party to his compound. So I can concentrate on this.
I really don’t know what’s going on.
Nina must have somehow guessed that Sis was a fake, even though she didn’t know about the fake. So I had no choice but to tell her the truth, but the question was “how much should I tell her?
It’s possible to keep her quiet. She can be restrained by her position, and given Nina’s character, I don’t think she’ll go after him.
But it’s not a good idea to give her any more false hope when her trust is already shaky. If she’s not careful, the suspicion could kill her. That would be a complete disaster.
However, revealing everything is going too far. Especially in the area of your past life, which is a sensitive subject that only Akatsuki has talked about. You might be thought to be a crazy person, and your credibility might be damaged.
In order to maintain his rapport with Nina, he had to keep a balanced disclosure of information.
I think it’s best if I tell them who I am, that I’m Zechs. It’s a fool’s errand now that it’s known I have a way to disguise my true identity. Of course we should also tell them why he’s so strong despite his lack of color. There’s nothing more terrifying than an unknown force.
The time was being consumed slowly. I tried to keep my thoughts calm and collected my thoughts as my frustration only increased.
I tilt my head back in my mind.
Thirty minutes had passed. Nina never seemed to open her mouth. I was expecting her to accuse me of cheating her or to ask me the whole story…
As if to scoff at such expectations, she maintained a quiet and relaxed demeanor. She just stared at me and did not seem to be talking at all.
I wonder what her intention is in her silence. Her expression is the same, but even her magic is as flat as a calm, so even I can’t quite grasp her emotions. The only time she gets emotional is when she’s training.
Let’s get serious. We stare at each other and our gazes cross. I’m trying to see what’s really going on behind those eyes.
We’ve been staring at each other for a while. I said, “What if…?” I said, “What if…?
No, no, no… But I can’t think of anything else.
I’m not sure if I came to this conclusion myself, but it’s so unexpected that I’m baffled.
Take a deep breath and calm your mind. Then turn your thoughts to the guesses you’ve just made.
I was sure Nina was waiting for me to start talking. Otherwise, she wouldn’t have kept quiet.
I’ve been trying to figure out… Why he’s waiting for me to open my mouth and not moving on his own.
Maybe it’s because you trust me.
–Yeah. Nina could still have faith in me. I knew she’d still trust me after all I’d done to lie and deceive her.
I find that hard to believe. Nina has been betrayed her entire life. She’s been treated coldly by all her family except her sister… and violently attacked in civil wars. She was raised in an environment where almost everything in the world was against her.
So my lying to her must’ve been a huge blow to her heart. It would’ve shattered all her trust in me.
And yet, in Nina’s eyes is the trust she has in me. The psychokinesis definitely picked up on her trust.
I wouldn’t say it’s an unshakable thing. It’s fleeting and faint. It’s so unreliable that you can’t find it without looking at it with your commissioned eyes.
Still, it was clear Nina hadn’t lost faith. After everything she’d been through, it was a wonder she hadn’t lost it.
Suddenly, my mind was filled with images of Nina in training. She had a glazed-over look in her eyes as she tried to survive on instinct.
I realized something. She’s so pure.
Even if you’ve been treated poorly in the past, even if you’ve been hurt through no fault of your own, even if those you put your trust in lie to you… Even when the world’s wrongs come crashing down on us, Nina will not turn to another color. She may turn her anger against others, but she does not grow bitter.
The essence of the girl Nina Goschilane Herneus was “the purity of her own firmness”.
No wonder she didn’t become a heroine in the original game.
Actually, the scenario writer told us that there was a sub heroine plan for Nina. According to him, it was rejected because “she is not suitable for a heroine”.
It’s not surprising. Nina’s certainly not a heroine. Or perhaps she’s not exactly a heroine for a heroine.
The hero would never be able to accept her if she could remain so pure. For better or worse, his adherence to modern Japanese values makes him a fatal match for Nina. I can just picture the hero who stands up for his righteousness and Nina who doesn’t give a damn.
I’ll leave you to it.
How can I respond to Nina’s genuine trust in me?
That’s– that’s an understatement. There’s only one way to respond to an honest thought.
I’m gonna do it.