“It’s really true. . .”
“Which means… if you can read minds, then the ‘thinking I hated you and avoiding you’ was a lie… and you were avoiding me because… you were repulsed by my feelings… is that it…?”
Theodore felt dejected by the unexpected idea, while his Kol began to tear up, so I hurriedly interrupted them.
“I’m sorry, I should have talked about the curse first. . .”
He was surprised by the ominous word. I held his hand to make sure he understood that I didn’t reject his affection and told him everything I had heard from my mother about the curse. I also informed him that the curse had already been lifted, which seemed to relieve him.
“By the way, what was my kol like until now. . .?”
“I think it’s better if you don’t know.”
“If you say that, I want to know.”
Although I now know that it wasn’t his true feelings, it still hurts me. If I give specific examples, it will also damage me, and if I say too much, he will probably worry, so I give a safe answer.
“. . .Well. . .he didn’t seem to want to be with me much. . .I guess.”
However, Theodore’s face still turned blue. He regretted speaking out that it would be better for him not to know, it seems that it was worse than he expected. He was regretful for being reckless.
“I’m sorry. . .I didn’t know and hurt you. . .”
“Theodore doesn’t need to apologize. It’s beyond our control.”
“But if my presence hurt you, then. . .”
I interrupted him by putting my finger on his mouth to stop him from apologizing.
“I’m the one who should apologize. Theodore always expressed his feelings for me, but I trusted his Kol too much and didn’t take it seriously. I’m sorry for what I did. . .”
Normally, if someone doesn’t take your words seriously no matter how many times you express them, it would be pointless to keep telling them. Moreover. . .after five years, it wouldn’t be strange for someone’s heart to break. Yet, Theodore continued to express his feelings without giving up. I feel both sorry and happy about that.
As Theodore listened to my words, he gently stroked my head with a calm smile.
“It’s okay. I’m happy that you liked me all this time, even though it was a difficult situation.”
“Well. . .I fell in love with you from the moment we first met, and even during the four years before I heard your Kol’s voice, I loved you so much that nothing could shake it. . .That’s why.”
As I replied, his face approached mine, and I closed my eyes, sensing a kiss. When I was about to surrender myself to the soft sensation. . .
“I love you. I love you. I love you so much that nothing can shake it. . .Ester.”
His voice was probably unintentional, but he didn’t mean to hide it. It seemed like he whispered his love to me as an equal, and my cheeks turned red with excitement.
At that moment, I was still not very familiar with kissing, and I didn’t know how to breathe. I lightly pushed his chest with my hand. Theodore, who was probably looking at me blushing, stared at me with his hot eyes from such a close distance that our noses almost touched.
“. . .Ester, can I hold you tonight?”
His whispering voice felt like it was resonating throughout my body.
“I want Ester. Please nod. . .Ah, please nod.”
Perhaps realizing that he had remembered I could read minds, he suddenly switched to using honorific language even with his mind’s voice.
“W-well, I also want to touch you, Theodore. . .but, the kol, the kol. . .”
“What about kol?”
“But, does it not bother you at all that your mind can be read?”
“Well. . .there’s nothing I don’t want Ester to know.”
Theodore said that calmly, with a smile, but is it really that simple? However, that’s not the issue at hand.
“But, even during that act, kol would say things that Theodore wouldn’t dare to say. . .it’s embarrassing.”
Covering my face with both hands, too embarrassed to even utter those words, my face visibly flushed. In response, Theodore pondered for a moment before innocently smiling and saying,
“I understand. Then, to avoid any embarrassment, I’ll say everything that crosses my mind out loud!”
“That’s not the issue!”
IIf humans could die from embarrassment, even a hundred lives wouldn’t be enough for me on this day.
Fortunately, I seemed to have avoided a life of constantly using transformation magic.